So my friend and I had an interesting conversation yesterday night. We've lived in bay ridge almost our entire lives and we know so many people here. Walking along 3rd avenue, you almost always run into someone you went to school with, those people know what you looked like when you were young and awkward; or perhaps you still are young and awkward, the stupid things you did and the stupid immature ways you behaved years ago. We came to the conclusion that we want to seperate ourselves from that image and from those people. Not that they are bad people, but it's just not the type of people i want to be around. Seperating ourselves from our past, and experiencing new things, new people is what helps you grow as a person and mature. I don't want to be stuck in bay ridge, in this tiny place where so many people hang out in front of deli's, on street corners, and on benches in front of bagel shops.
Also, i can't believe the way some boys; and they really are that, who are also in their very early 20's act. Why is it that people can't be upfront and completly honest with what they expect and what they want. Why do you have to pretend and "play games" like we all did in high school. It's refreshing when a person knows what they want and tells you what that is.
I don't know what it is about today, but i've been feeling pensive. Going to work keeps my mind off things a little bit at least, but these new weekends where no routine is in place anymore is definitely a shake up. All i need is time now. With time i will fill that missing part of me and become whole again. Yes.